On Caretaking, focus, and being "selfish"
I'm assisting a Craniosacral class this week and another assistant asked me to give her a session while the students were practicing on each other. There are plenty of other assistants to go around if the students are in need, and when experienced practitioners give and receive sessions in class, it affects the energy and awareness of the whole field.
In spite of that, part of me wanted to hold an awareness of the whole class as I was practicing - basically hold space for everyone collectively, out of a desire to be as helpful as I possibly could be. She thought that was too much to handle, and suggested that simply having focus on her and myself would be in service to the group. I agreed.
While I do have big dreams of facilitating healing in large groups, but sometimes it's of service to the greater good to focus solely on myself for some time, or just focus on myself and one other person.
It's fun to engage in group dynamics and expand my awareness out to recognize and interact with the energy of a crowd, but it's a good practice to pendulate between that and a narrow focus. Since I've spent most of my life focusing on other, tracking everything around me, and caretaking others at the expense of my own well-being and boundaries, this is a healthy practice! It's the light side of being "selfish."
We're talking about layers in class this week - these layers being connective tissue, muscle, bone, fluids, and space. We're noticing which layer wants attention, which one is the loudest, which are revealing imprints, and which one feels most comfortable to the recipient in the moment.
I often resonate most with the layer of space, which I believe is why energy healing comes easily to me. If I were to ALWAYS have my focus on the layer of space, it might be difficult to connect with some people. I would miss details of other layers. I may feel "spaced out." So I pendulate my focus to the other layers.
And so my focus pendulates between myself, other, the relationship between myself and other, and the collective. As my focal point shifts, my understanding deepens of each one and the connections between us.
What is your focal point now?
Where feels most comfortable for you to focus - on yourself, other, the whole group, you in relation to other? And what feels like a growing edge, something you'd like to work on now?
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